Why must I cry?

So I have been moving forward with my plans for opening the frozen custard shop. The excitement has kind of wanned and I'm not really sure how into I am. I think it would be fun. But is opening a business really what I want to do. I have ideas of leaving Portland for a while once I'm done with my undergrad and if I go forward with the business, I'm making a decision to stay in town for a while. I feel like I have an extremely privileged life and feel that I am in a position that I can do something important and meaningful with my life. Do something that really matters and make a difference to our world. I almost feel that I owe it to the people who haven't had as easy a life as I have. Do I want to start a business and get stuck serving people frozen custard for the next who knows how many years of my life? I think a huge reason I was initially so excited to start this business is because it was something to do; something to fill up my time. I don't know what I want to do but frozen custard might not be it. I guess we'll see. We found a location and might end up having to make a decision on buying it sometime this week. I might be an owner of some commercial property. Feels weird. I think I might start volunteering in my free time. Stop spending an obscene number of hours on the computer and do something good. And seriously people, why must i cry?